Thought Disorder

Sunday, August 23, 2009

HEADACHE, HEADACHE, HEADACHE

I'VE QUIT CAFFEINE oh my beloved coffee how I crave for you; there's no close substitute
I'VE BEEN SLEEPING AT LEAST 7 HOURS A DAY well, at least on most days
I'VE NOT BEEN SKIPPING MEALS in fact over-eating due to perpetual hunger

All in vain as Mighty Migraine came
Knocking on my door last Thursday
After using the computer too long for loonywen
Or is it the chocolate I ate last Sunday/today?

(OK I suck at poems but I still rhyme sometimes)

I'll harvest stem cells to create a new brain to be planted in my head!!!! ANNOYING. I think everyone should get migraine it's really unfair that I seem to be the only one stuck with this irritating pesky condition and it ALWAYS comes at the best times - when exams are nearing. DURING CTs I'D A REALLY GOOD SHARE OF MIGRAINE AND AURAL PERCEPTIONS REALLY GOODY GOODY THUMBS UP THUMBS UP. Argh but anyway I need to stay away from stress now especially since exams are around the corner. I don't know how I'm gonna do this but I'll still try to keep a balance. I probably work better when my brain's not clogged up. My life really sucks to the core. *inserts vulgarity* TIME claims that if you hurl vulgarities when you're feeling frustrated, it'll actually do you good.

I REALLY H8 DOING CSC ESSAY AND LOONYWEN PFFFFT AND I KEEP PROCRASTINATING BY S_EEPING AND WATCHING TEEVEE ;( AND GETTING PISSED OFF BY ME MIGRAINE (I should name it)

I shall s_eep. Oh how I wish I've a 7 day MC...

Labels: Headache

10:16 PM

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Crawling

Although prelims are like 40 - 50 days away, I don't seem to have any motivation to study/revise. There's like SO MUCH to do but I just can't seem to find the drive in me to camp at the study table. I know I've to brush up on Econs quite a lot but the thought of having to write many many long essays just turns me off. Gotta start loving this. I'm ever so tired whenever I get home and I'll tend to take a nap or waste time watching TV. Plus the attack of frequent, disturbing headaches that last a few seconds each have been common - I really wonder what's wrong with my head? I was scheduled for a brain scan initially but the doctor reviewed my condition and said it's actually not too serious. Yeah I hope so too. But, WTF is wrong, seriously?

I know the former will expire in 3-4 months but the latter will very well expire on my deathbed, whenever it is. Not looking forward to this......pain in the head.

I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means

(An all-time favourite depicting my shallow emotions)

To hell with the future. It gets rather depressing especially after reading yesterday's scholarship news report. I don't know what I REALLY want and it's a f-ing turning point of my life; I need to decide after prelims (provided I do well) and be even more firm in my decision after A's. All these years I've been blindly guided by my mom's "right" perception. The Singaporean way? I asked my mom why am I studying so hard now, and she said that it's for a better future. Other than making more money to lead a better life, what defines a better future? I'd want better health, for one. $ makes the world go round, but what else?

Actually, the thought of taking A's now is getting less scary and the feeling is getting more real.

After all, A's do not mean the world.

But still, it is the world now. I shall work on my essay...
&I will donate blood soon! And frequently too!

Labels: A's, Headache, Thoughts

11:29 PM

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Felicia studied in Dunman High School, loves elmo, is a major drama addict and is a cake lover. She has quit coffee even though she loves it.